Wednesday, August 31, 2011


Summers when I was a girl I'd travel in an ocean liner with my mother and sister to visit my mother's parents in the tiny village of Beaver River, Nova Scotia.  The ship was grand for such a humble destination, but over the years I grew accustomed to the many decks, the slot machines, and the lounges with polished brass railings to grab onto when the seas began to roll, something that happened often in the tempestuous Bay of Fundy.  

My favorite childhood books always had a portal of sorts that led to a magical place: the rabbit hole in Alice in Wonderland, the hidden door in The Secret Garden, the wardrobe in the Narnia books.  Looking back, I realize that on those voyages the sea itself was my portal.  We booked a passage through its waves, carried our bags up the gangway under the light of the moon and stars, and then spent ten-hours tossing and turning,  cradled in the great vessel's hull.       

And when we arrived on the other side of the bay--the other side of the world as I knew it--there was the confusion of customs, the hugs and exclamations about how much we'd grown from my grandparents, and then what felt like a long drive down a road that hugged the coast--the Evangeline Trail in fact.  The destination was a little white farmhouse with a steep-pitched roof in front in the traditional Nova Scotian style.  Here's what I loved most about visits to that house:
  • the wood stove in the kitchen where my grandfather cooked pancakes, the smell of which pulled us out of bed before our eyes were even open;
  • the dark anadama bread made by a woman down the road--we had it with nearly every meal, but my favorite way to eat it was sliced thick and smeared with butter and homemade raspberry jam;
  • the grand old barn behind the house jam-packed with antiques and treasures;
  • the fire pond beside the driveway, surrounded in summer by thousands of purple lupine sentinels;
  • the old washing machine with the crank handle we turned to wring out the clothes before hanging them on the line to dry;
  • the acres of fields and forest, and the sound of the ocean's roar muffled only by the mounds of sea-swept stones piled on the beach.
The one thing I loved the very best, though, was the short dirt road to the beach.  The air there smelled like salt and hay and scrub pines.  The pebbly road satisfied a child's need to make noise with each footstep, counting out the rhythm of our pace as we walked, singing all the summery songs we'd learned on 45's by the Carpenters, John Denver, and Carly Simon.

And then there were the wildflowers.  The road was edged with every kind I knew: Queen Anne's lace, wild sweet peas, rugosa roses, daisies, Indian paintbrushes, lupine, black-eyed Susans, clovers, and buttercups.  There were many I didn't know, too, and for those I invented names like curly purples, whiz-bangers, and tiny starlights.  Every afternoon on our way back to the farmhouse, my sister and I picked armfuls of wildflowers to bring to my mother and grandmother who helped us fill vases and pitchers and jelly jars with flowers for the whole house. 

I seldom have the chance to pick wildflowers anymore--at least not in such great abundance.  I always steal a few roadside Queen Anne's lace each year or a handful of rugosas, but nothing can match the wild and sweet excess of those childhood bouquets.  

I had a taste of that memory yesterday at Jordan's Farm in Cape Elizabeth, where you can pick a large bunch of farm flowers for $4.  They may not be wild, but the feeling of having hundreds of blooms to choose from, the butterflies and bees whirling around me as I cut the stems--it was its own portal of sorts.  I felt that if I just kept walking down that row of black-eyed Susans, I might end up on a dirt road in a place on the other side of the world I as I know it, my arms full of blossoms, my heart and mind full of people long since gone.


  1. One of your best stories yet Gigi. Just loved this post and the sense of time and memory. Your flower photos look perfect with your header today. Much love and the wildflowers are divine. XO

  2. Oh Gigi, what a heartrendingly beautiful story. Thank you for sharing such a tender memory with us. That last paragraph brought such a lump to my throat.

    I have to ask. What is a fire pond?!


  3. Lovely to share this memory with you Gigi!

  4. What a lovely & perfect memory! Your post pulled hard at my heartstrings.


  5. This is what memories are made of Gigi.
    $4 is cheap at the price. XXXX

  6. swooning over the pictures your
    words very Anne of Green
    Gables in my mind's eye:)
    Now my mouth is watering
    for jam and bread
    and my dream of building
    a flower farm
    is nourished.
    billowy thanks,

  7. Hey Gigi, great memories! How wonderful that you got to do all this every summer ... very beautiful flowers, too!

  8. Lovely story.
    I have similar memories of visiting grand-parents but the small town was in rural ALberta, the antiques and old-fashiondness of everything was the same though...
    One day my brothers and I asked for a jar and we used it to "catch" flower heads, and when the jar was full we added water to make flower soup.
    I will never forget how hot and dusty that day was, the scents of each flower and herb strong on the hot wind as we brushed through them, picking the prettiest ones for our jar.
    I won't forget either, how they looked so beautiful floating in the water, their petals intertwining into a mass of colour and texture.
    Thanks for a beautiful summer memory Gigi, both yours and mine.

  9. Amazing memories! I have so wanted to stop this year beside the road and pick wildflowers. I think I need to find a farm and pick to my hearts delight.

  10. Your memories of your summers in Nova Scotia are so lovely to read, Gigi.

  11. Oh my! Not only are these photos beautiful so are your memories. I love the way you write...


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